freaky medical check up

I made a trip down to see a doctor for medical check-up as requested by my future employer. They have actually assigned this doctor to perform a full medical check up on me. This includes X-ray, ECG, urine and blood test.

For one, the ECG is just so uncomfortable as I would have to strip in front of a nurse and lay down straight, exposing my assets facing up!!! Then she put some sort of sticky gel around my bre*ast, and the gel helps to stick those equipment that looked like a ping pong ball with wiring over it, and on both my hands and legs. It take just a moment to get my body diagnosed, but it felt so damn long cause I'm so uncomfortable being naked with a stranger! I think the results could be kind of bias, as my heartbeat is faster than usual.

X-ray and urine test is as per normal. The doctor took my blood pressure and said "Hundred over sixty. Low blood pressure". No surprise for me, as my pressure has gone as low as 80/60 before!

Blood test is somehow painfully unexpected! The previous blood test I took, left me with blue black for almost 3 weeks! Chew E.T said it is because the clinic has got a very lousy nurse. In fact, it was the doctor who did the blood test for me. So this time, I specifically told the doctor about my previous experience with another clinic, hoping that he would be a pro to not give me a blue black for another 3 weeks. I also added a little note about being an anemic, so that he may show my some mercy for not taking so much blood from me. Well, I'm one funny patient. :P

After his assurance, I thought I wouldn't feel a pinch and it will be done in a sec!!! Mana tau... It takes him forever to extract enough blood from my vein! I turned to look away from my arm, I was waiting for him to say "done", but all I got is this painful pinch, and I can FEEL MY BLOOD FLOWING.. then STOP.. then FLOW again.. then STOP!! This continues for several times.. and finally he said "DONE". Knowing that it takes so damn long to extract my blood, he said "Your blood is flowing so slowly.. I think you don't have enough blood.. eat more chicken liver".

I was like "WTF.. I did told you that I have anemia right?!!" (No.. I didn't say this out loud to him)

Now that I'm back home, I still couldn't straighten up my arm! I think I'm wounded from the battle of my blood and veins vs the doctor with a syringe!

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a fuckin pissed off blog post!

I suddenly have the mood to wash my car today. Started off by wiping inside.. then move on to the outside..

But when I walked to the front bonnet.. WAT DA HELL!!!

There's a deep scratch on it!!! Written "24" and "fuck" below it!!!

WAT DA FUCK!!! I immediately call Barry as my car was parked at his place yesterday night. And he told me that his brother BMW was scratched too!!!

DAMN!!! I hope those people who fucking scratch our car for no fucking reason will fucking die and rot in hell!!! All these fucking idiots has got nothing better to do and suddenly found that they acquired a new hobby, which is car scratching?!! Is that it?!!

Now where the hell am I gonna find a few hundred bucks to get my car done again?!! CIPET!!!

I'M SO FUCKING PISSED OFF RIGHT NOW!!!

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people pleaser... NOT!!! :P

Yesterday night I have trouble sleeping.

My mind was spinning, and the constant spin kind of inspire me to jot something here.

While I was doing the last thought before I shut down my brain, I was trying to figure out the biggest question in my life so far "Why do I have to please everyone I know?".

Well see, I'm a people pleaser. I have always, and still am, trying to make people like me in any way possible. It might sound pathetic, but I believe for one reason, this is crucial to make sure we co-exist in peace in this life. If we live in hatred, and knowing people hate us, how suck would life be? It will also lower one self-esteem knowing they are not good enough to make people like em'. That is why, I have always wanted to be liked by others. To live happily, you see?

But... yesterday was different. Instead of answering "Why do I have to please everyone I know?" question, memories flashback to my mind, thinking how others can still find reason to hate me despite my effort to be nice. Sooo... my mind went BANG!!! YOU KNOW WHAT!!! I HAD ENOUGH!!! YOU CAN GO TAKE A SPOON AND EAT YOUR ASS!!! YEAH, YOU HEARD ME.. THOSE OF YOU WHO DON'T LIKE ME AS A PERSON, GET THE HELL OUT OF MY LIFE COZ I'M AIN'T GONNA GIVE YOU SHIT!!!

WOW... That was like the biggest discovery of myself for ages!!! It's true indeed. Why do I have to dwell about people who won't love me or even like me? They are not worth my time, attention, and love! I had my mind thinking for so long what I did wrong! I was sad, devastated, mad and angry of myself!!! And you know what, these mean people just don't worth the time I spent thinking, and the tears I've cried!!!

I, from now onwards.. will only appreciate those who love and care for me. And those who are not, you guys will just be my "side dish" now. I can survive with, and even without it.

So from this moment on, everytime I go to sleep, I'll make sure I have a reason to keep myself smiling tomorrow! :)

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I won RM1k from red fm!!!

June 9th 2010, 5.24pm is the most historical day in my life so far!!!

For the past 2 weeks while I was jobless, I tuned into 104.9FM and heard of this contest called "RM20k Facebook Frenzy". Since i'm a loyal fan of Red FM all these while, I thought "why not!!!". It's very easy to join. I just need to "Like" the Red FM (Malaysia) group in Facebook, tag their "I ♥ redfm" logo above and make it as my profile pic. Then I just need to say something nice about redfm in my status updates. How easy is that huh!!!

Well, I did just that, and instead of my pretty face on FB, I have the above "I ♥ redfm" photo. Everyday for 2 weeks, I would I logged into my Facebook and update my status without fail! Every 8am and 5pm, the DJs would announce the name of the winner they pick! Every time they announce it, that lucky person would win RM1,000!!! Since it's a RM20k contest, there will only be 20 person chosen from the whole members of the Red FM (Malaysia) group! The last time I checked, the group has got 12,700+++ members in it!!! So what's the odd of being the lucky 20 person among 12,700 people? Do the math!

Well, publicizing redfm so constantly and publicly in my FB status updates creates curiosity among all my friends in Facebook. Some of them asked if i'm working with redfm. Some asked how much redfm pay me to advertise for them? Some are kinda sarcastic too! At that time, I was thinking by myself "If i win the money... it will leave all of you speechless! Hahahaaha *evil grin *"

Every 8am.. I wake up despite not working, plug-in my handsfree to my handset so that I could hear the radio.. and again, JD & Dilly did not call my name. I was putting my hope higher every 5pm whenever Terry announce a name. I joined from the very first day.. So 1st winner... 2nd winner.. 3rd winner.. I never missed any of the announcement, keep tuning in wherever I go, in the car, at home, or thru my headset when I'm outside. 18th winner.. I still update my status. Secretly hoping that they would reward this loyal listener. 19th winner was announced on the very last day... 9th June 8.30am. Not me! Ah damn! That's it.. just not my luck!!!

All RM19,000 has been given out! Leaving RM1k.. again, WHAT'S THE ODD?!! So I gave up my hope, and do house chores instead.. figuring out "life goes on.. I didn't lose anything by joining that contest.. so wat-da-heck!". At 5.20pm.. Debbie came into my room, with my PC on, hearing redfm online (please note that online fm is slower that on-air). I was wiping my stuff, mopping the floor.. then Terry the DJ goes.. "I have a name here.. This person is the last winner of RM20k FB Frenzy!!! If that person doesn't call me back within 20 minutes.. will it snowball?! NO!! I will pick another name cause it will end today.. So whoever goes by the name Joyce Yap.. CALL ME BACK WITHIN 20 MINUTES!!!"

I thought I'd die at that moment!!! My hand was shaking so badly.. and I dropped all my stuff and cloth that was on my hand. Pick my handphone and search for "red" cause I saved it in my phonebook (just in case I won.. it will be handy.. tell me about keeping my hopes high!). And IT DID!!! I was shouting "Oh my God" repeated.. all the way till Terry picks up my call! He goes "helloooo...".. and the still very shocked me stupidly says "It's Joyce here!!!" as if like duh... I should go "Hello Terry" right!!! I sounded kinda stupid. Ah who doesn't for being RM1,000 richer!!!

I bet Debbie was laughing all the way when I was on the phone with Terry! Sis so coincidentally came to our house, and I just hugged her shouting "I won RM1k from red fm!!! She then called her son, daughter, and my bro Andy to hear the radio. Mum was putting her hands together saying "God bless you.. you better pray later".. Muahaaaa~

Guess now I can take the RM1k to show off to whoever sarcastically condemned me for supporting Red FM!!! Hahahaaha!

I never knew I'll bump into this kind of luck.. it's like.. I never won anything so far.. NOTHING AT ALL.. REALLY!!! So this is my first time.. and it's HUGE!!!

I really love red fm. This station will continue to be my favourite station ever!!!

Now look at what I've said about red fm before. I guess all these helps to win me the money!!! It's from earliest sequence (first day till the day I won)..

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And I will love you so.. Red FM!!!

Gud day Red FM Breakfast Show with JD & Dilly!
I'm waitin 4 Red FM (Malaysia) 20k FB Frenzy,
Every mornin I shout "PICK ME PICK ME!"
My car insurance & roadtax is due 4 some money,
If u didnt pick me in da mornin,
...I hope Terry Ong would surprise me in da evenin,
Keepin my finger crossed while waitin,
♥ u JD,Dilly,Jeremy,Nisha, Ally & Terry!
All your names rhymes wonderfully!

Do you know that listening to Red FM has the same effect as drinking RED Wine?? Yes it does!! RED Wine lowers the risk of heart attack. So does listening to Red FM soothing and relaxing music everyday! I have a good heart.. and a pretty gooodd mooodddd!!!!

My usual day would start with a gloomy morning. Listening to Red FM Breakfast Show with JD & Dilly, both the talk and songs played, put a broad smile on my face. Red FM (Malaysia) has never failed to brighten up my day. "You light up my life". Thanks Red FM!

Red FM's Drive with Terry Ong manage to keep me sane in the insanity of bad road traffic! And hearing Terry said "I ♥ U" makes all the listeners feel like they are remembered, appreciated and loved too (although he didn't say it to me YET). So yeah, we ♥ you too Red FM (Malaysia)!

There r times when u r happy & wan a song to celebrate! There r also times when u r down, & certain songs will bring up the mood & make u groove along with it. And there are also times when u just feel like crying, knowing that u will feel alot better after that. I don't know why.. but Red FM always play just the right... song that attends to my mood. The one & only station I listens to.. Red FM (Malaysia)

Red FM (Malaysia) has the best mix of songs ever~
Billboard charts to keep me updated and great oldies to bring back the memories!Red FM has been the best companion to me! Lift my spirit up always!!!

Best station with really cool DJs!!! Keep it up Red FM!!! I ♥ Red FM!!!

Winning Red FM's RM20k FB Frenzy is a dream come true for many people! Especially to those who think that they will never win anything from any competition! So Red FM, you did alot of good deed - you are practically playing Santa, or even God!!! No doubt, you will forever be the FASTEST GROWING station that plays the B...EST MUSIC with the COOLEST DJS ever!!! I ♥ Red FM!

Tuning in to ♫ Red FM ♫ is just another normal routine like brushing teeth in the morning. Without ♫ Red FM ♫ in the morning, things just won't work quite well. Hair-do just won't work, breakfast is gonna be tasteless and car just wouldn't start!! Well, everything is colorful only with the presence of Red FM! I ♥ Red F...M for coloring my dull life. Happy morning peeps!!!

Was heading to my car, feelin confused after walkin out from an interview, start my car engine, turn on the air-con n radio.. n guess what!Red FM is playing Body Language!My mood just SNAP! N d next thing I know,I was groovin along with the song!And was laughin away when Terry pesterin a caller, sayin that he likes peo...ple to say dat they love him back Kakaka~See how much Red FM means to me?!U cheered me up!!TQ!!!

My usual day would start with a gloomy morning. Listening to Red FM Breakfast Show with JD & Dilly, both the talk and songs played, put a broad smile on my face. Red FM (Malaysia) has never failed to brighten up my day. "You light up my life". Thanks Red FM!

Isn't it ironic that Red FM is playing the song that I wanna dedicate to Red FM itself???
"Red FM, you're the best thing i never knew I needed.. So when you were here i had no idea.. You're the best thing i never knew i needed.. So now it's so clear i need you here always!"

Red FM is like a fuel to start me off for a great day!!! VRROOMMM VRROOMMMM!!!

8 more hours for the next name to be called! Who will be the lucky winner?? All Red FM crews must be cracking their heads now. Remaining RM4k to fulfill dreams of so many people. Joyce Yap is now singing I Dreamed A Dream!

Great variety of music, updates of news worthy issues, by the coolest group of DJs. Yours truly, Red FM! I ♥ you!!! (Saying this often doesn't make it worth less as per Terry)

And these are the status updates when I won the money!!!

THANK YOU RED FM FOR MAKING ME THE WINNER!!!
SAVING THE BEST FOR LAST YA...
Can't explain how happy, excited and thrilled I am!!! Am still shouting to everyone now that I've won RM1k!!!!
I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE TERRY, ALL RED FM DJs, RED FM CREWS & MY RED FM FAMILY!!! ♥ ♥ ♥

I ♥ Red FM! Thank you for making me one of the lucky winner for the RM20k FB Frenzy! There's more to give away starting from today! So everyone, tune in to Red FM to gain your share of RM60k Music Takeaway! It's as easy as sending a SMS! ;)

Please answer the below questions:-

Which station play the best music?
Red FM!

...Which station has the coolest DJ?
Red FM!

Which station rock your world?
Red FM!

Which station gather us as ONE BIG FAMILY who shares mutual interest in music?
Red FM!

Which station make our heart pounding like mad and almost pengsan every 8am and 5pm for the past 2 weeks?
Red FM!!!

Which station offers RM RM RM to their listeners?
Red FM!!!

Which station we love the most?
YES IT'S YOU AGAIN RED FM!!!

I ♥ YOU RED FM, Terry, JD, Dilly, Aly, Nisha and Jeremy!!!

Thank you and I ♥ you Terry Ong!!!
This is the very first time I won something from any contest /event I participated!
I ♥ ♥ ♥ U!!!

There's a saying "To have joy, one must share..."
Red FM shares not only great music, but great great laughter with the always-so-entertaining-DJs, and of course, sharing cash frenzy with all the listeners!
So THANK YOU Red FM for giving so much JOY to so many people!!! I ♥ Red FM!!!

And this is what they put in their website red.fm under "Here's what people are saying about Red FM. Have you had your say yet?"
"What I love about Red FM is for the none-cluttered ad space. The music played is my type, and I love sentimental, oldies and love songs played by you guys. Red FM is the definitely the best station ever for me! ;)"
-Shu Ling, Joyce

Now that's alot of "something nice" right? Prolly they're afraid of me spamming their webpage.. so let me win so that I'd stop?! Nah~ you're so wrong!!! They want and need this kind of loyal fans! That's why saving the best for last! Now see I'm advertising for them in my own blog (only if there's more readers, then it would really be an effective form of advertising).

So there you go.. I really do love redfm!!! The one and only stations that don't make me switch to other station, and the only station that give me money just by listening!!!

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♫ Find a guy..... ♫

♫ Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat or will stay awake just to watch you sleep.

♫ Wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show off to the whole world when you are in sweats, who hold your hands in front of his friends, who thinks you are pretty even without make up on.

♫ One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you.

♫ The one who turns to his friends and says "That's her".

♫ All the female readers would go

"Ahhh~ that's so sweet..

I hope he's like this.."

then go bugging her partner,

pointing at these quotes and say

"see see.. u dun love me enough to do these"...

♫ For male readers..

They'll go cursing at me for posting this up!

Me : Laa laa laaa... ♫♫♫ :P

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♥♥L.O.V.E ♥♥L.O.V.E♥♥L.O.V.E♥♥

♥♥L.O.V.E ♥♥L.O.V.E♥♥L.O.V.E♥♥L.O.V.E♥♥L.O.V.E♥♥L.O.V.E♥♥L.O.V.E♥♥L.O.V.E♥♥L.O.V.E♥♥

Fall in LOVE or fall in HATE

♥

Get inspired or be depressed

♥

Ace a test or flunk a class

♥

Make babies or make art

♥

Speak the truth or lie and cheat

♥

Dance on table or sit in the corner

♥

Life is divine chaos

♥

Embrace it

♥

Breathe and enjoy the ride

♥

So live to eat not eat to live!

♥♥L.O.V.E ♥♥L.O.V.E♥♥L.O.V.E♥♥L.O.V.E♥♥L.O.V.E♥♥L.O.V.E♥♥L.O.V.E♥♥L.O.V.E♥♥L.O.V.E♥♥

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Dear friends..

Friends have a way of speaking without words..

To have a good friend is one of the greatest delights of life..

A hug is the shortest distance between friends..

Who finds a friend, finds treasure..

To have joy, one must share..

To the world, you may be just one person.. But to one person, you may be the world..

Families are like fudge.. mostly sweet with a few nuts!

A friend is someone who reaches for your hand but touches your heart..

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childish-nyer!!!

How childish is a person to remove another person as friend in Facebook because they just don't like that another person anymore?

And how funny is it that these people here, added up to have almost 5 children already?!! Frickin'childish I would say!!!

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A.N.G.E.R !

Today, I surprised myself with how much anger I have in me. How can my little petite figure contain so much fire inside? At that point of time, I was hoping that the fire would burn me inside out, and then burn the people around me too. Watdaheck was I thinkin!!!

All I want to do now is to shout my lungs out, cry my heart out, and beat the hell out of that person! Gawddd...

Feeling so hurtful and my heart is actually feeling the pinch.. the pain comes together with a set of questions like "What have I did wrong? Why does it hurt so much? Why is he/she doing such thing to me?".

Wanted to get away and not to face it anymore. I do not want to see him/ her nor hear any news about that person. This is how much I hate it.

And now that I am more calm..

I wish I am more forgiving.

I wish I can be soft hearted.

I wish I can stand on someone's shoes.

I wish I can be less-angry and for once, console myself that this misfortune, is actually a blessing in disguise.

BUT THEN AGAIN.. Haihhhh.. Being a good person is always harder.

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...while job hunting!

I find that the last few days to be very unbearable.

Looking for a job is not very tough actually, but looking for a job that you want, that offers you salary that you find satisfactory, with a location that is strategic enough to travel to.. IS FREAKING HARD! ...and it gets HARDER when you don't really know what you want. Am very afraid that I would land on a job that I might not really like, and the rush is due to the feeling of inadequacy and "useless" when not being financially independent.

I am that kind of person. I just don't feel right when I am not able to be useful to myself. I need to be someone that I can be proud of, or at least not to be embarrass about. Is that what we called pride? Ego? Nah~ Don't really care as long as it helps in self improvement. To me, this is called motivation! Ushhh!!!

I do hope in the next few days or weeks (hopefully not months), I would be able to post something nice here. A great job perhaps?

Always as an assurance to my action, and to console myself, I would like to say that I do not regret quitting from my previous job. It may be a hasty one, but definitely not something that I regret with. Am very very very glad that I have the courage to quit from that job as staying there for one more day would drive me nuts! ;)

Oh gawd.. it has been 1hour since I wallop that pack of Korean instant noodles, and I'm still very much bloated! Ya think I'm gonna be a fatty for having supper at 1.15am in the morning? If that's the case, I can always go to Perth again to lose more weight. That cold weather just wipe off my weight just like that *pufff*.

I hear my bed calling for me. Ciao peeps!

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