The single men and single ladies who have kept me company / needed my company,
seemed to be busy with their own agenda recently.
Makes me wanna ask my friends who have stayed single for awhile now
"How did you manage to stay single all these years?!!!"
8 months have been the longest that I've been out from a relationship.
Still counting.
Don't know how long more.
I actually enjoyed being single.
Not tied up with one particular person.
Or to be dragged along with his activities, his friends, his family etc.
And all those time are catered for my own activities, my friends, my family etc.
The full 8 months of me just pampering myself, just being me, living my life.
All these time I've never realized the potential I have in me.
The things I'm capable of doing.
I've rediscovered my passion for so many wonderful things in life.
Coz finally, I have time to concentrate in nothing but me.
But sometimes I really miss the feeling of being taken.
It's always a blessing to have someone to called "mine".
To be able to love, care and cherish someone.
To be happy just by making someone happy.
To have something to look forward to - could be as simple as a lunch date,
an anniversary, planning for a romantic Valentine's Day,
to save money for a place called home, to have babies together.
To have someone who love me, care for me,
and committed in wanting to spend the rest of his life with me.
The biggest relief is to have someone and knowing that I am not alone,
and will not be alone.
That I will always have someone with me, to make me feel safe.
Someone who assure me that I don't have face any storm alone,
and that the strength of two person combined is always tougher than fighting alone.
Someone whom I know will stick by me through thick and thin,
and will always be with me irregardlessly.
For once, I just don't mind being dragged to his activities.
Meeting his friends is enjoyable because it means
knowing him more and loving the people he treasures.
And every single minute spent with his family is precious coz spending time with his family,
loving and caring for his parents is an act to return all the favors, kindness they have showered him,
and a way of thanking them for nurturing him into becoming someone I love.
Whoever in his life is a part of mine, and it means I've got more people to love me!
So.. Having the best relationship is the balance of both single and in a relationship.
We get to have our own space to express our personal needs to be with our own friends,
spend a few hours to read our girly book without disturbance,
to go for spa and massages for some alone-time etc.
And yet we get to enjoy each other's company just like what couples do in a relationship.
I get to do all these in my past relationship.
I thank all my previous partners for letting me be me, accepting me who I am,
and helped me grow - not containing me in their perceived relationship / ideal image of life together.
Being single now is something new for me.
8 months is not enough of time for me to get used to.
There are alot of things I missed and had forgotten how it feels like when being in a relationship.
I misses those time when I can talk to someone throughout the night - and realized
"WTF! How did we talked for 3-4 hours non-stop every single night
and yet it seemed like there's whole load more to talk about?!!"
I misses those time when mum asked
"Did you sleep talk yesterday night? Heard you laughing at 3am in the morning!"
but in fact I just had one of the best conversation with that special someone.
Sense of humour is the fire, passion, and root of a healthy relationship.
I misses someone who I can talk to just about anything and everything without being judged.
Someone who I can call my life partner without losing him as my best friend.
I misses someone who is being himself and not pretending to be someone he is not.
Being with someone who is TRUE gives me sense of security that makes a relationship last.
I misses someone who I can do crazy things with,
talk stupid with, and we both could laugh at the same old jokes over and over again.
I want someone to pillow fight, water fight, tickle, bite, and do all the stupid things with!
Why don't anyone believe whenever there is a self-declaration of my status?
Is being single so hard to believe?
They said... I have "high standards".
They thought I'm looking for some kind of rich, handsome and romantic prince charming.
Which era are they living in?
Don't they know that HE does't exist?
As simple as it may be. Or as hard for people to believe in.
I just need someone who I can feel comfortable with, can have alot of laughter with,
the same one person who I don't mind talking to until we are in old age,
and someone who makes me feel secure now, and in the future.
Someone who will do his best in letting me know that I'm the only one - always and forever.
But until that someone arrives with God's plan,
I would want to enjoy my life.
There's so much more to do and learn.
I want to climb up the highest mountain.
I want to fly with the birds, swim with the fishes.
To sing my heart out and for once, sound good - not like a frog!
To cook like a true Nyonya.
To bake my favourite cake and pastries.
To make up, dress up, and break some guy's heart.
And when I'm done and tired of all the above,
maybe I'll opt for something more relaxing.
Like spending some peaceful time with friends.
If you are one of the lucky ones who receive my call,
make sure you don't decline my invitation else you gonna be sorry!!!
And during the journey of self discovery, I would love to find someone who will
always makes me feel WANTED every single day... (even when I'm old, with freckles, crinkles, toothless etc)
There's a sorrow in the wind, Blowing down the road I've been I can hear it cry while shadows steal the sun But I cannot look back now, Come too far to turn around And there's still a race ahead, I must run I'm only half way home I gotta journey on, Where I'll find the things I have lost I've come a long, long road Still I've got miles to go I've got a wide, wide river to cross I have stumbled, I have strayed You can trace the tracks I've made All across the memories, my heart recalls, But I'm just a refugee, won't you say a prayer for me Cause sometimes even the strongest soldiers falls I'm only half way home I got a journey on, Where I'll find the things I have lost I've come a long, long road Still I've got miles to go I've got a wide, wide river to cross I've got a wide, wide river to cross I've got a wide, wide river to cross
I bet many girls out there is hoping that their ex-bf will come into certain realization, singing this song dramatically in remorse, full of regrets and guilt, and knowing that nothing they could do, that will bring back the girl they have left hurting and disappointed. A girl who have moved on, living a better life, with someone who loves her.
This song is dedicated to Rachel Lee and Raihanah, my best buds who got themselves hurtng from their recent break-ups. I know those men is gonna regret leaving you. Then you can slam this song on the pity face of theirs. Or maybe even sing them "We're NEVER EVER EVER... Getting back together..." by Taylor Swift. Haha.. It's enough to crush their heart like how they crushed yours without thinking how hurtful it would feels.
Bruno Mars - When I Was Your Man (BEST LYRICS + PICTURES)
Bruno Mars "When I Was Your Man" lyrics
Same bed but it feels just a little bit bigger now Our song on the radio but it don't sound the same When our friends talk about you, all it does is just tear me down Cause my heart breaks a little when I hear your name It all just sounds like oooooh… Mmm, too young, too dumb to realize That I should have bought you flowers And held your hand Should have gave you all my hours When I had the chance Take you to every party Cause all you wanted to do was dance Now my baby's dancing But she's dancing with another man My pride, my ego, my needs, and my selfish ways Caused a good strong woman like you to walk out my life Now I never, never get to clean up the mess I made, ohh… And it haunts me every time I close my eyes It all just sounds like oooooh… Mmm, too young, too dumb to realize That I should have bought you flowers And held your hand Should have gave you all my hours When I had the chance Take you to every party Cause all you wanted to do was dance Now my baby's dancing But she's dancing with another man Although it hurts I'll be the first to say that I was wrong Oh, I know I'm probably much too late To try and apologize for my mistakes But I just want you to know I hope he buys you flowers I hope he holds your hand Give you all his hours When he has the chance Take you to every party Cause I remember how much you loved to dance Do all the things I should have done When I was your man Do all the things I should have done When I was your man
Just gotta share this sentimental song introduced by Kayvin in his blog. A song that would have gotten me all teary if I listened to it few months back.. But it is just another nice ballad for me to listen to right now. Enjoy!!!!(*don't cry*)
when the last teardrops falls (song with lyrics)
Blaque "When The Last Teardrop Falls" lyrics
It's so hard to lose the one you love To finally have to say goodbye You try to be strong but the pain keeps holdin' on And all that you can do is cry Deep within your heart you know it's time to move on When the fairy tale that you once knew is gone [Chorus:] When the last tear drop falls I'll still be holdin' on to all of our memories And all of what used to be When the last tear drop falls I will stand tall And know that you're here with me in my heart When the last tear drop falls So now I'm alone and life keeps movin' on But my destination still unknown, oh yeah Will there be a time when I'll fall in love again? When I was meant to walk these streets alone If there was just one wish I could be granted here tonight It would be to have you right back by my side [Chorus] Now it's time for me to find my happiness again And the emptiness from missin' you Will never ever end, baby [Chorus]
Been wanting to post this song up few days back but I realized that other post is more important - like, about FOOD!
Just let me assure you that my sucky days are over. Am perfectly fine now... :)
Enjoy this song, and the meaningful lyrics.
"I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them. I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back. And it's not the end of the world".
Found another version sung by Adele live @ The Royal Albert Hall in 2011 during the iTunes Festival
Adele - I Can't Make You Love Me (Live) Itunes Festival 2011 HD
Bonnie Raitt I Can't Make You Love Me Lyrics
Turn down the lights, turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me, tell me no lies
Just hold me close, don't patronize - don't patronize me
Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark, in these final hours
I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
'Cause I can't make you love me, if you don't
I'll close my eyes, then I won't see
The love you don't feel when you're holding me
Morning will come and I'll do what's right
Just give me till then to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight
Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark, in these lonely hours
I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
'Cause I can't make you love me, if you don't
The sun is filling up the room And I can hear you dreaming Do you feel the way I do right now? I wish we would just give up Cause the best part is falling Call it anything but love And I will make sure to keep my distance Say "I love you" when you're not listening How long can we keep this up, up, up? And please don't stand so close to me I'm having trouble breathing I'm afraid of what you'll see right now I give you everything I am All my broken heart beats Until I know you understand And I will make sure to keep my distance Say "I love you" when you're not listening How long can we keep this up, up, up? And I keep waiting For you to take me You keep waiting To save what we have So I'll make sure to keep my distance Say "I love you" when you're not listening How long can we keep this up, up, up? Make sure to keep my distance Say "I love you" when you're not listening How long til we call this love, love, love?
P!nk - Just Give Me A Reason (Official Lyric Video)
"Just Give Me A Reason" lyrics by P!nk ft Nate Ruess
Right from the start
You were a thief
You stole my heart
And I your willing victim
I let you see the parts of me
That weren't all that pretty
And with every touch you fixed them
Now you've been talking in your sleep oh oh
Things you never say to me oh oh
Tell me that you've had enough
Of our love, our love
Just give me a reason
Just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
It's in the stars
It's been written in the scars on our hearts
We're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
I'm sorry I don't understand
Where all of this is coming from
I thought that we were fine
(Oh we had everything)
Your head is running wild again
My dear we still have everythin'
And it's all in your mind
(Yeah but this is happenin')
You've been havin' real bad dreams oh oh
You used to lie so close to me oh oh
There's nothing more than empty sheets
Between our love, our love
Oh our love, our love
Just give me a reason
Just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
I never stopped
You're still written in the scars on my heart
You're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
Oh tear ducts and rust
I'll fix it for us
We're collecting dust
But our love's enough
You're holding it in
You're pouring a drink
No nothing is as bad as it seems
We'll come clean
Just give me a reason
Just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
It's in the stars
It's been written in the scars on our hearts
That we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
Just give me a reason
Just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
It's in the stars
It's been written in the scars on our hearts
That we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
Oh, we can learn to love again
Oh, we can learn to love again
Oh oh, that we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
Reminded of this song when it was being played by Life FM this evening.
Lovely... Sad... Soulful... Emotionally true.... Summed up to a wonderful song to end my Tuesday.
It's been seven hours and fifteen days
since you took your love away
I go out every night and sleep all day
since you took your love away
since you've been gone I can do whatever I want
I can see whomever I choose
I can eat my dinner in a fancy restaurant
but nothing
I said nothing can take away these blues,
'cause nothing compares
nothing compares to you
It's been so lonely without you here
like a bird without a song
nothing can stop these lonely tears from falling
tell me baby where did I go wrong?
I could put my arms round every boy I see
but they'd only remind me of you
I went to the doctor guess what he told me
guess what he told me
he said girl you better try to have fun
no matter what you do
but he's a fool
'cause nothing compares
nothing compares to you
All the flowers that you planted mother
in the backyard
all died when you went away
I know that living with you, baby, was sometimes hard
but I'm willing to give it another try
I cry for the time that you were almost mine, I cry for the memories I've left behind. I cry for the pain, the lost, the old, the new, I cry for the times I thought I had you.
You want me to act like we've never kissed, you want to forget, pretend we've never met, and I've tried and I've tried, but I haven't forget yet.
I'd like to believe that I'll wake up one morning and not miss you anymore. I'll finally understand that when you broke my heart it was for a reason, one I just don't understand yet, but when I do, I'll know that you messed up, and not me.
Now that my hair color is "settled", I can finally post some photos about it!
It was still raining red and brown at the shower for the past week.
Scary huh....
So... I dyed my hair two weeks ago.
Wasn't keen to dye my hair right before CNY knowing that Nico is gonna
slaughter me with the new pricing.
But looking at my current hair, I really wanted some color on it to spice things up.
Was bored with my black hair.
Wanted to get my previous color - dark brown.
I've always tried to get colors that are not too bright as I have hair of Snow White.
Somewhat, black as ebony?
So in order not to have obvious color contrast between my colored hair and new grown hair,
darker color would be a wiser choice in order to blend in better.
Nico then said the most popular color this year is RED!
And that I should get it.
Showed me a few colors and chose the darker shade of red.
Nico agreed that it suit me coz it's not gonna look obvious when my hair grow longer.
So ON lah!
Waited for them to mix between two colors.
And...
The mixture turn out to look like this!
It almost scare me to death!
Jaw dropped looking at the mixture.
They had to continuously convince me that this is not the actual color,
and the outcome is not as bright as this!
Was skeptical but they were very convincing...
As my hair black pigment is way too BLACK,
they had to leave the mixture on my head for an hour!
The entire time I was thinking
"Die lah die lah.. will it turn out bright red?"
"Will I look like Ah Lian (aka samseng jalanan pompuan), will I even get fired with this hair?!!"
Posted the mixture on FB and some said they are excited to see the outcome.
And hippo predicted that it will turn out like this!
YAY? or NAY?!!!
After washing, blowing dry, snip snipping here and there,
the outcome surprised me!
The color looks great!!!
Well, not as great as the red-head up there,
but I do like my color.
Thanks again Nico!
The above photo was taken on the actual day.
Went for dinner with parents at Tony Romas, Setia City Mall,
at the same time, flaunting my new hair color!
In fact, I've noticed that there are many red-head at the malls recently.
Friends and colleagues dyed their hair red too!
Male or female!
RED indeed is the color!
As for my little basketball head,
after one or two weeks,
after more washing,
the color changed.
With different photos taken of me,
sometimes it looks like burgundy,
sometimes purple,
sometimes brown,
and sometimes.... just plain black!
It made me desiring for something more RED now!
On top of my wish to eat and not get fat,
exercise and not build muscle,
play till down and not have panda eyes,
Can I have one more wish?
I would very much love to be ONFIRE with RED hair,
but don't want to get FIRED being unsuitable for the corporate world.
Can oorrrr noooottt?!!!
You can see how much I'm emphasizing on RED,
despite me being so hesitant on the adventurous new color when it was first proposed by Nico.
See how fast a woman can change?!!!
I might even like to have a green hair tomorrow!!!
who knows...
NICE RIGHT???!!!!!!!
Talking about being on fire,
here's a nice song from Alicia Keys!
Love her songs, and this is one of it.
Alicia Keys - Girl On Fire (Inferno Version) ft. Nicki Minaj
You know when you are down, and there would be a song that perfectly described how you are feeling?
As if the song is written just for you?
My mind is now playing Qu Wanting "Wo De Ge Sheng Li"
Guess that's my untold story.
Qu Wanting hold a concert in KL the other day.
Anyone went to see?
I wanted to hear her sing,
but then I have only listened to two songs from her.
Drenched and "Wo De Ge Sheng Li" (meaning you exist in my song).
Would be not worth it to go for a concert just for two songs.
Wanting 曲婉婷 - 我的歌声里 (You Exist In My Song)
Those bananas like me who love this song but couldn't really sing it,
I hope the "han yu pin yin" would be of help,
And those love don't understand what it means,
The English meaning is just below the lyrics.
May sound funny, that's what I picked up online
coz I couldn't really understand what it means either.
Qu Wanting - Wo De Ge Sheng Li with Chinese lyrics, Chinese translation (han yu pin yin) and English translation (English meaning)
没有一点点防备 也没有一丝顾虑
Mei you yi dian dian fang bei, ye mei you yi si gu lue I had neither a little bit of preparedness nor a trace of apprehensions
你就这样出 现在我的世界里 带给我惊喜 情不自已 Ni jiu zhe yang chu xian zai wo de shi jie li, dai gei wo jing xi, qing bu zi yi This way you appeared in my world; brought me pleasant surprises and I was not able to control my own feelings
可是你偏又这样 在我不知不觉中 Ke shi ni pian you zhe yang, zai wo bu zhi bu jue zhong However, contrary to expectations also this way, when I was unconcious
悄悄的消失 从我的世界里 没有音讯 剩下的只是回忆 Qiao qiao de xiao shi, cong wo de shi jie li, mei you yin xun, sheng xia de zhi shi hui yi Quietly disappeared from my world. There are no letters; what remains is only memory
[Chorus]
你存在 我深深的脑海里 Ni cun zai, wo shen shen de nao hai li You exist in my deep sea of brain
我的梦里 我的心里 我的歌声里 Wo de meng li, wo de xin li, wo de ge sheng li In my dreams, in my heart, and in my songs
你存在 我深深的脑海里 Ni cun zai wo shen shen de nao hai li You exist in my deep sea of brain
我的梦里 我的心里 我的歌声里 Wo de meng li wo de xin li wo de ge sheng li In my dreams, in my heart, and in my songs
还记得我们曾经 肩并肩一起走过 那段繁华巷口 Hai ji de wo men ceng jing, jian bing jian yi qi zou guo, na duan fan hua xiang kou I still remember that we once shoulder next to shoulder together walk through that section of the bustling alley
尽管你我是陌生人 是过路人 Jiu guan ni wo shi mo sheng ren, shi guo lu ren Even though you and I were strangers, passengers,
但彼此还是感觉到了对方的 Dan bi ci hai shi gan jue dao le dui fang de Yet each other still felt the other person's
一个眼神 一个心跳 Yi ge yan shen, yi ge xin tiao One eye expression, one heart beat
一种意想不到的快乐 好像是 Yi chong yi xiang bu dao de kuai le, hao xiang shi One kind of unexpected happiness which is like
一场梦境 命中注定 Yi chang meng jing, ming zhong zhu ding One dream which is fated in life
Repeat Chorus
世界之大为何我们相遇 Shi jie zhi da wei he wo men xiang yu The world is this big, why we meet each other?
难道是缘分 Nan dao shi yuan fen Could it be predestined affinity?
难道是天意 Nan dao shi tian yi Could it be the intention of heaven?
Repeat Chorus
你存在 我深深的脑海里 Ni cun zai, wo shen shen de nao hai li You exist in my deep sea of brain
我的梦里 我的心里 我的歌声里 Wo de meng li, wo de xin li, wo de ge sheng li In my dreams, in my heart, and in my songs
This blog started in 2008 as a personal space with the only intent to express my feelings of which are left unsaid to people whom I find communication deemed impossible.
It then slowly turns into a blog filled with words and photos of good food, travel, and also constant ranting of my life.
Looking back at those years, always reminds me of who I was, I am, and how I have changed as a person.
Wednesday, January 15, 2014
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