Single vs Being Taken?

Thanks God I've made it through Thursday.

It has been a boring week!

The single men and single ladies who have kept me company / needed my company,

 seemed to be busy with their own agenda recently.

Makes me wanna ask my friends who have stayed single for awhile now 

"How did you manage to stay single all these years?!!!"

8 months have been the longest that I've been out from a relationship.

Still counting. 

Don't know how long more.

I actually enjoyed being single.

Not tied up with one particular person.

Or to be dragged along with his activities, his friends, his family etc.

And all those time are catered for my own activities, my friends, my family etc.

The full 8 months of me just pampering myself, just being me, living my life.

All these time I've never realized the potential I have in me.

The things I'm capable of doing.

I've rediscovered my passion for so many wonderful things in life.

Coz finally, I have time to concentrate in nothing but me.

But sometimes I really miss the feeling of being taken.

It's always a blessing to have someone to called "mine".

To be able to love, care and cherish someone.

To be happy just by making someone happy.

To have something to look forward to - could be as simple as a lunch date,

an anniversary, planning for a romantic Valentine's Day,

to save money for a place called home, to have babies together.
To have someone who love me, care for me,
and committed in wanting to spend the rest of his life with me.

The biggest relief is to have someone and knowing that I am not alone,

and will not be alone.

That I will always have someone with me, to make me feel safe.

Someone who assure me that I don't have face any storm alone,

and that the strength of two person combined is always tougher than fighting alone.

Someone whom I know will stick by me through thick and thin,

and will always be with me irregardlessly.

For once, I just don't mind being dragged to his activities.

Meeting his friends is enjoyable because it means 

knowing him more and loving the people he treasures.

And every single minute spent with his family is precious coz spending time with his family,
loving and caring for his parents is an act to return all the favors, kindness they have showered him, 

and a way of thanking them for nurturing him into becoming someone I love.

Whoever in his life is a part of mine, and it means I've got more people to love me!

So.. Having the best relationship is the balance of both single and in a relationship.

We get to have our own space to express our personal needs to be with our own friends, 

spend a few hours to read our girly book without disturbance, 

to go for spa and massages for some alone-time etc.

And yet we get to enjoy each other's company just like what couples do in a relationship.

I get to do all these in my past relationship.

I thank all my previous partners for letting me be me, accepting me who I am, 

and helped me grow - not containing me in their perceived relationship / ideal image of life together.

Being single now is something new for me.

8 months is not enough of time for me to get used to.

There are alot of things I missed and had forgotten how it feels like when being in a relationship.

I misses those time when I can talk to someone throughout the night - and realized 

"WTF! How did we talked for 3-4 hours non-stop every single night 

and yet it seemed like there's whole load more to talk about?!!"

I misses those time when mum asked 

"Did you sleep talk yesterday night? Heard you laughing at 3am in the morning!" 

but in fact I just had one of the best conversation with that special someone. 

Sense of humour is the fire, passion, and root of a healthy relationship. 

I misses someone who I can talk to just about anything and everything without being judged.

Someone who I can call my life partner without losing him as my best friend.

I misses someone who is being himself and not pretending to be someone he is not. 

Being with someone who is TRUE gives me sense of security that makes a relationship last. 

I misses someone who I can do crazy things with,

talk stupid with, and we both could laugh at the same old jokes over and over again.

I want someone to pillow fight, water fight, tickle, bite, and do all the stupid things with!

Why don't anyone believe whenever there is a self-declaration of my status?

Is being single so hard to believe?

They said...  I have "high standards".

They thought I'm looking for some kind of rich, handsome and romantic prince charming.

Which era are they living in?

Don't they know that HE does't exist?

As simple as it may be. Or as hard for people to believe in.

I just need someone who I can feel comfortable with, can have alot of laughter with, 

the same one person who I don't mind talking to until we are in old age, 

and someone who makes me feel secure now, and in the future.
Someone who will do his best in letting me know that I'm the only one - always and forever.

But until that someone arrives with God's plan,

I would want to enjoy my life.

There's so much more to do and learn.

I want to climb up the highest mountain.

I want to fly with the birds, swim with the fishes.

To sing my heart out and for once, sound good - not like a frog!

To cook like a true Nyonya.
To bake my favourite cake and pastries.

To make up, dress up, and break some guy's heart.

And when I'm done and tired of all the above,

maybe I'll opt for something more relaxing.

Like spending some peaceful time with friends.

If you are one of the lucky ones who receive my call, 

make sure you don't decline my invitation else you gonna be sorry!!!

And during the journey of self discovery, I would love to find someone who will
 always makes me feel WANTED every single day...
(even when I'm old, with freckles, crinkles, toothless etc)

Hunter Hayes - Wanted (Lyric Video)

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The only thing that I have mood doing right now is to write. Just write about silly lame stuff.. what to do. This is the only platform for me to rant all I want. Nobody would want to listen to me and all my silly thoughts, and definitely nobody is going to read this blog of mine. But just by jotting it down here.. My brain won't be so conjested! Kekeke~ I lurve this diary!!!


By the way, if there are any readers our there who so coincidentally reading my blog, please bear with my bad command of English and grammar mistakes. I never do well in English papers. I still couldn't differentiate 'drink' and 'drunk' (woopsss.. there are differences). I mean.. difference of give and gave, those sort of things. When I type, I just directly translate whatever in my mind into writting. And sometimes I had a hard time finding the right words. How I wish my English is as good as other bloggers.. Shame on me~


Got many things to write.. about me cooking yummy spaghetti, baking a so-so cheese pie, that surprisingly still manage to get a few compliments. After all the hard work, I deserve some compliments laaa... Kekeke~


Also wanted to write about a few movies I watched recently..


Watched Kungfu Panda with the sor haiZ - not bad at all, some part are really farnieee. Looking forward to see Cantonese version as recommended by many other friends, they said Cantonese version is more funny than English ones, true ah???




Watched Wanted with parents - so fake lah the stunt.. the guy who jumped from one building to another and still manage to score a few hits chun chun on the target? So fake! And Angelina Jolie looked so skinny and old. Not a very nice movie to watch... Both dad and mak-ee geleng kepala after the movie.




The Dark Knight..

Fuiyooo... very chun!!! Heath Ledger performance was superb!!! He made The Joker alive!!! I lurve his performance even more than Batman himself. Too bad Ledger wouldn't be around to see the success of his movie. I bet he will be nominated or even win the Academy Award as Joker.


He's an amazing actor! Who can ever forget his performance in Brokeback Mountain! This time, he has done so much in order to 'menjiwai watak The Joker'. He isolated himself for 1 month just to feel this confused, chilling character! The intensity he would have to bear just to be closer with The Joker. And all these are possible causes to his death. Pity him...


This movie is a HIT!!! YEAHHH!!! I know I should be talking more about Batman (played by Christian Bale). I like his performance in The Prestige though. For this movie, Bale is kinda dull.. and The Joker had him overshadowed!!! He stole the show! He really does! Heath Ledger.. I salute u!





The Joker : Whyyy soooo serioussss....???


Heath Ledger - died during post production of The Dark Knight
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Taken from Daily News
Heath Ledger thought landing the demanding role of the Joker was a dream come true - but now some think it was a nightmare that led to his tragic death.

Jack Nicholson, who played the Joker in 1989 - and who was furious he wasn't consulted about the creepy role - offered a cryptic comment when told Ledger was dead.

"Well," Nicholson told reporters in London early Wednesday, "I warned him."

Though the remark was ambiguous, there's no question the role in the movie earmarked as this summer's blockbuster took a frightening toll.

Ledger recently told reporters he "slept an average of two hours a night" while playing "a psychopathic, mass-murdering, schizophrenic clown with zero empathy ...

I couldn't stop thinking. My body was exhausted, and my mind was still going."
Prescription drugs didn't help, he said. "


Jack Nicholson, who played the Joker in the 1989 'Batman' movie, says he warned Heath Ledger about the part.

Eerie uh?
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Gosh.. I'm so doomed!!! Mid term tomorrow lah Joyce. What is happening to you? Non-stop blogging?!! Nonsense!!! You better start flipping your notes now!!! It's already 12am!!!

Wat the...!!!


I have a confession. I realised that I'm getting lazier by day. Would prefer not to think, not to do anything, not to care or bother about anything at all. The Joyce I was is responsible to herself. She play hard, but she is serious when she needed to. She remembered her purpose of quitting her job.
The Joyce now.. I really don't know what happened. What hit me? Was torn apart by recent incidents, but it's not a big deal till I would have to torture myself. Just couldn't find the mood to care about anything recently. Need help...
People was wondering how come I got time to cook and bake. The answer : Coz I stopped doing my reports, my assignments, and whatever necessary for me to get me to U.K!!! Shit lo shit lo... Kelv is right. I've changed!!!

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